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[In a lot of ways, the problems with how Kacchan treats people comes down to context. Izuku's not about to tell him to change how he treats his friends; if they have a problem, he trusts that they'd tell Kacchan directly -- especially Kirishima -- and if they don't, then it's not his place to claim otherwise. But when it comes to strangers, or civilians in need, Izuku will put his foot down on anything that he wouldn't want to be on the receiving end of. Something can be okay in casual situations with friends who know him and not okay elsewhere, and if he can help the blond figure out where that line goes, he'll be beyond happy.

And that includes when it comes to himself. He just promised he would, so he will.]

A little bit, yeah. And you can be, um, prickly. When you want to be left alone.

[To put it politely. Though maybe he shouldn't? Maybe being direct about this is something he's going to have to learn.]

I don't know if I can explain it very well right now. But I'll figure it out.

[As for the rest...he's not sure what to say, at first. They have a deal, now. They're going to try having a proper friendship. Kacchan will listen when Izuku needs him to. What else is there to say to that?

He contemplates the blond's words for a moment. Then he smiles, uncertain but gentle, and reaches out to place his hand on one of Kacchan's arms.]

It's okay to make mistakes, Kacchan. As long as I can tell you're trying.

[Kacchan isn't the kind of person who'd ever try to slide along on insincere apologies and Izuku's willingness to give another chance, but it feels important to say anyway. He may be soft on almost everyone, but he has his limits, and the blond has hit them once before.

He doesn't want to go back to that, either.]

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[Prickly? Yeah, that...makes sense, he supposes, especially when he wants to be left alone. He feels a little prickle go down the back of his neck at being called that, though.]

Alright.

[After all, if he's going to need time to do this without messing up, Izuku might need time to get it right too. The other boy has always been soft-spoken and not liked calling people out on things unless he was in hero mode and there were villains around.

When Izuku says that it's okay to make mistakes as long as he can tell he's trying, Katsuki's head jerks up to look at Izuku with those wide eyes again. For a few moments, he just stares, and then he feels, humiliatingly, the burn of tears in his eyes, and he jerks his head away, looking the opposite direction from Izuku, not wanting him to see it. He isn't sure anyone's ever told him that before.

Isn't sure he buys it. It seems fake that someone would think it was perfectly fine for him to make mistakes. Not when what everyone wants from him, what he expects from himself, is perfection. Everything he's always done has had to be perfect, for his parents, for his teachers, for himself. Katsuki Bakugo is good at everything he does, the first time he does it. Anything less is just crap. Useless.]

You sure about that?

[He keeps his head turned away until the burning of tears is gone and he can look at Izuku without it showing on his face.]

[heroondecku]

[Oh. That's not the reaction he expected to get. It sure isn't the one he wanted. His hand leaves the blond's arm, hovering over it awkwardly for a moment, before he settles on shifting to sit closer to the other boy instead. He leaves space between them still, because he knows Kacchan isn't big on having people in his space, but he gets close enough that he can sit comfortably in a position that allows their legs to touch. A silent I'm here if you need it. Not that Kacchan has ever wanted this in the past, but...he can't help it.]

Of course I'm sure. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes, Kacchan.

[He bumps their knees together. Lightly, an attempt at a reassuring touch.]

Besides, if you do mess up, I know you'll work hard and be better the next time. You always do. Even when you get something right, you always try to get better at it.

[When Bakugou does finally look back at Izuku, he'll be greeted with a much more assured smile. It's small, physically, but the energy of it fills Izuku's entire face and glitters in his eyes. Warm, and affectionate, and full of awe.]

It's one of things I admire about you.

[Kacchan can do anything!]

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[Katsuki doesn't really register that Izuku has touched his arm until he takes it away and leaves it hovering there, the spot on Katsuki's skin where it had been resting feeling suddenly chilled. But Izuku moves a little closer, their legs touching, and Katsuki allows it, listening out the other boy as he explains.

Everyone makes mistakes sometimes. He knows that Katsuki will work hard to redeem himself if he does.

Katsuki's eyes flick over to Izuku and he looks at him for a few long moments, trying to internalize that. That it's okay to make mistakes with this, that Izuku's not going to write him off, as long as he's actually trying. It's a foreign concept, strange to turn over in his head. As long as he can remember, the goal has been nothing less than perfection, in every aspect of his life.]

I will.

[The expression on his face is serious, so Izuku will see that he's taking this seriously, that it's something else he's going to expect perfection from himself for. His expression softens a little bit as Izuku says it's something that he admires about him. That...brings up some complicated emotions. He's always barked back when Izuku claims to admire him for something, thinking that it was just the other boy looking down on him, but he's starting to register that it isn't some kind of lording it over him that Izuku is better. At least, he doesn't think so, not anymore.]

You...really mean that, don't you?

[His voice is low and a little throaty, but his red eyes are still locked on Izuku's face, meeting his eyes after a few seconds because he wants to see the other boy's real reaction.]